Thanks Vrae. You're right about it passing too. It do feel physcially and mentally a little better today and those thoughts I had are gone. I know they may come back again when anther bad flare comes, but I could never follow through because of my loved ones and the faith I have in God. I know He's with me, but it is very difficult still. I sometimes feel I'm loosing my mind too when I get flares too. And I get terrible panic attacks. It's just awful, but I'm going to try to remember that This too shall pass. My fear is that someday it won't pass, but hopefully that won't happen. That again is where my faith steps in, but rsd puts you through a true test of faith, that's for sure. Thanks again to all of you for your kind words and for lifting my spirits.