Sorry it’s such an explicate docu of my day today.

So there was no nap today (damn it). I worked this morning , went to lunch, made my post here, laid down and I start having big time pain in what feels like my gallbladder (right side by my lower rib cage). Also having intermittent pain on the opposite (left side) too. My upper back muscles (not my spine), chicken wings area, screaming with pain. I felt nauseous, I have had HORRIBLE heartburn, digestive issues, and everything in me was saying your gallbladder is in trouble. Trying to find something to eat that doesn’t kill me with indigestion afterwards is a chore. This was another reason I was trying to seek out something I thought might be easy on me. Soup that was basically clear, and well that didn’t work out, so I ended up with chicken and veggies (Moo Goo). Apparently it was all for not. I ended up in the ER tonight. What a fiasco that was. I just love the hospital.

I felt so bad because I waited for my husband to get home to take me right after he walks in the door from work (new job started in Oct). He’s sick as a dog (several of us in the house have this virus) and I have to make him drive me across town and sit in the ER with me. His head is about to explode from sinus pain, he’s brought his laptop to try and finish his homework (he’s in college), as his term papers are coming due, and did I mention just a few weeks ago we got news that his father has terminal lung cancer that has metastases in his bones, brain, spine… everywhere. They have given him six months. He lives in San Francisco. So while we are in our five hour wait and see pattern with me, he gives me an update on what’s going on with his Dad. I feel like such a pain in his you know what. This man must truly love me, and because I love him, I feel like such an extra burden!! It’s ALWAYS something going on with me!!


The ER.. The short version of this visit: They do an EKG to make sure I’m not having a heart attack (omg) and thank goodness that was ok. They do a sonogram and gallbladder looks fine (in the moment I’m finding this VERY hard to believe). They have me swallow a lidocaine / Maalox cocktail. I did tell them I nearly choked to death earlier in the day. At this point I am scared that I will have a repeat episode, but I do it anyway. OMG!!! That was horrible in every way! They gave me some meds for pain, and IV Zofran and some sort if IV antacid.

The bottom line: The diagnoses is GERD. What? What’s that? Doc tells me; gastroeesophageal reflux disease (perfect, another disease), and PUD Peptic ulcer disease (oh great, one more). Says it’s probably also Gastro paresis. Awesome. I think I’ve heard about the connection with that and CRPS. He looks at me like he has no idea to confirm a connection, so we glaze over that.

So not only do I have spasms in my bladder, I have to assume that the CRPS is the culprit here too as the doc is explaining the nerves involved in all this. <sigh>

They loaded me up with Rx and now I will be looking for a GI doc I guess. ER Doc says, yes, you need to see one. This is turning into a full time job just chasing doctors. I can’t even get what is supposed to be my other full time job put to bed so I can focus on all this. I’ve been lucky to get 3, 4 or MAYBE 5 hours in at work and then I’m done. I have to lay down for the balance of the day.

I feel so overwhelmed with all this. My disease(s) are wearing me out, literally. And I fear everyone else too! Damn it’s depressing.