Aw thanks Kicker, you've just fetched tears to my eyes.

You're right, life isn't fair but I figured without this illness, I wouldn't be the person I am today. It made me have to grow up far quicker than I wanted to but its also gave me so many valuable life experiences and made me appreciate small things much more than I probably would have if I wasn't ill. Its made life tough and relationships a lot harder (recently come out of a three and half year relationship), friends don't understand and even some family members walked out on me when I never thought they would and when I needed them the most but I guess its made me who I am today.

I'm 18 now, soon to be 19. Seems a long time ago when I was that scared 12 year old who felt like life was going to end, I've definitely come a long way since then.

Thanks for your support. its you guys here that helped me accept life for how it is, good and bad.


Luke,

I know you probably think people are lecturing you to go out but it isn't the case. We all want what is best for you. I know first hand how lonely it can get being ill, especially at a young age (i'm guessing your young from your posts?). Please try and make the best of life while you can. I'm like you, I like my own company but too much of it and I become depressed. I spend half of my time in the house and half out, when i'm up to it. During the week I try and save myself for the weekend to go to cinema or shopping with friends. I sometimes go clubbing although this is more difficult due to standing issues. Its hard and I do have to pay the price for having fun but its definitely worth it. If you ever want someone to talk to, who understands how hard it can be to motivate yourself i'm here.