Hi lynny31,

First, I'm going to send you big hugs...

Please don't apologize for anything, we all need to vent, to be able to talk and have people truly listen.

I could have written your post, I understand completely. I've been to Dr's who said just get on with it, pull your socks up...well, if it were that easy and we could, we'd do it!
When I was younger I'd take it all to heart, cry all the way home and it would bother and upset me for days and days.

That Dr. you saw should never say such things to you, shame on him/her. If you can, definitely change Dr's, this your health we're talking about and you deserve the best and to be treated with compassion.

If I see a Dr. who makes some snarky remark, I'm out of there and I seek another one, this is your life.

I have suffered from major dperession since about age 18, a nightmare...years have been spent trying to find the right anti depressant, staying stable, going in to horrendous depressions...fighting my way out...on and on.

This is just my opinion so of course not gospel but it night help a little.

I've also felt so alone it hurts, couldn't keep a job, didn't go out for weeks, would go home from school and cry in my room.....(many years ago!!) I have to think I deserve a happy life and by God I'm going to fight!!

First things first and you need to be under the care of a good Dr. I know it's hard but don't put up with anyone you don't feel comfortable with and who you don't have faith in, again, you deserve the best. I know how one dumb comment can put you in a downward spiral.

Therapy can help, being around positive people, I think we all know that but you have to look after yourself first, I know the feeling of going over and over thoughts, it can be part of the depression, on those days I try to relax and even if it's being quiet and reading a book that's okay, take a nice bath, maybe it sounds silly but I often tell myself, it's okay, you're not well right now and it's going to take time. I feel as though I've been to hell and back a few times.

Honestly, I won't bore you to death but I could tell you so many stories but this is not about me, I just want you to know I get it, I totally know how you feel.

Get to a good Dr. it may take time but keep fighting for that, it can make all the difference.

You need someone to listen, everyone does, please let us know you are ok?

Many, many hugs...