Hi dagma1,
Thank you for your response. It certainly is a sweet sorrow in the aspect of knowing other people go through the same issues. I would hate for people to go through such a bad depression, but on the other hand I don't feel like I am the only one either. If I could possibly ask you what medication helped you when you were at your lowest point? I have been on plethora of meds that would help for a little awhile and then the effects would go away. So not only do I deal with the depression itself but I also deal with the depression of finding a good medication and then it pooping out on me....I have been on Wellbutrin now for a little over 3 weeks and see absolutely no improvement.

It hurts me along with my whole family. They just want to see me get better and be self-sufficient. I also put a lot of pressure on myself to do that as well. It is very weird though, I had some trauma a few years ago and ever since then I haven't been ok. I can't sleep, even though I am exhausted beyond belief. It's like my brain just won't allow me to get there and when I do, I get the racing thoughts. I wake up everyday lightheaded and in this dazed state. I have absolutely no energy to do anything even though everyone tells me to exercise. In the past I used to run 4 miles a day (2years)ago. I could also hold down employment and go to college awhile ago like 5 or more years. If I can ask what has helped others get out of this state? Is it just eating healthier, exercising, trying to get to bed a decent hour? Anyway thanks for the support I hope someday I will be well enough to help others on here with their depressive episodes!