"The prospect of living with something like this for the rest of my life scares me, but the idea of having an answer almost gives me a sense of relief. Is this normal, or am i just crazy??"

Hi Nikki and welcome to our community.

Many people who go through the diagnostic process and all of the time and patience that takes, have said that once that they were diagnosed, it was a relief (of sorts)...so yes, this is normal and no, you are not crazy to think this way.

I hope that you get some answers one way or another.

With love, Erika