Lydia, your words certainly help me.
You are right, MG can not be turn on or off.
I'm seeing a therapist and he helps me a lot. One thing that is very hard for me is to express my emotions by talking.
As MG is a recent thing in my life, I'm still in that moment where everything is new, the fear is big, and I discovered that I can not controll many and many things in life.
I'm glad I found this place. Thank you again.