I'm just tired of feeling like carp all the time. I feel like some sort of autoimmune freak. I'm tired of swollen, painful body parts. I'm tired of getting so fatigued just taking a shower. I'm tired of doctors, blood tests, hospital visits, more medications, etc. This past month, I have taken a vacation from all doctors. I needed to do that because I honestly had at least one dr. appt a week for a while there. I see 7 specialists now and my PCP. It just gets to be too much.

I'm tired of having to pace myself and am terrible at it anyway. Once I start something I push until I have either finished it or my legs start to collapse. I try my best to pace myself but it's difficult to do sometimes. I just want to accomplish something with my day.

Passing the whine and cheese . . .