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Originally Posted by Adamo
There are so many things I wanted to do in my life and now it seems as if I will only recover over a very long time if at all or remained mentally dysfunctional forever. I am suicidal and hopeless.
If there is any way you can give me some perspective I would be most grateful. All I can think of is how I use to be normal and that now I am surely never to regain such a thing again. Truly despairing....
Could I ever make it off this stuff or reagin anything?
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Adamo,
If you are feeling suicidal please call a crisis hotline, go to the ER, or call your psychiatrist. I will suggest again that you see a
different psychiatrist. At least gauging by what you say, she sounds rather negative and threatening... that doesn't sound like a good thing to me, with you in this state.
That is the best perspective I can give you right now. I understand about feeling hopeless. Get some help. If one door won't open, try another. You don't have to be alone in this, and there will be better things ahead. Please remember that since you are scared you are probably seeing things as hopeless, but there is hope. The mind is a tricky bugger in that regard.
There is also a forum here at Neurotalk where you can talk about feelings of suicide. It is called "Survivors of Suicide". Although it isn't for crisis management, the folks are compassionate and there are fewer restrictions there for discussions about suicide or about feeling suicidal. Here is the link:
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html
I am afraid I don't have any useful take on your benzo situation, at this point.
waves