I play hockey in a rec league, so there really is no way to "ease" myself back into physical play. I either play or don't.

In a strange twist, playing actually helps my symptoms, eases my anxiety and gets me out of the house for a few hours. Overall, I feel better and more like myself when I participate. It's when I skip out on games and "hibernate" in my home, that I feel worse.

That being said, my symptoms are pretty consistent regardless if I play or not.

For my particular situation, I can play a 5 minutes shift (which is unimaginable for hockey) and be fine, but throw me in front of my computer at work and the symptoms start immediately.

Having a very difficult time understanding what's going on here or how to handle it.

Thoughts?