Thank you, thank you, thank you! Everyone, seriously, you've all helped me feel *so* much better.

Also, regarding suicide -- I've already contacted a therapist and I plan to begin therapy as to come to terms with the new situation. This type of health problem isn't like anything I've confronted before, it's time for me to handle this and prevent myself from losing sight of what's important...which is that life is *always* worth it.

Much love to everyone, I'll keep you all posted as this journey progresses. Thanks again for the kindness, support and feedback.