Wow...just...wow. That is probably the worst thing I can imagine hearing from family. My motto in life is generally that the only people who have the power to hurt me are the ones I care about...and to hear something like that from people I care about would devastate me.

So now you have to decide what you're going to do about it. Suicide...not an option...don't you consider it at all. But perhaps it is time for a new start...a new life. No one deserves to hear what you did...it's cruel, evil, selfish...and you should not be around people like that. You are going through enough without needing that thrown on top of everything else.

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