hey sue
i can empathise. it is always something that sits like a gremlin in the back of my mind - a way that will get rid of the pain and fear and stupid RSD generally.

But I'm just too damn curious about tomorrow - who knows? it could be a good day, a great day or a dreadful day.. but unless you see it you'll never know.

Also, though my brain may consider it - at heart, I will NEVER let the RSD beat me. It is a part of me but I am in CONTROL and it will NEVER be. There are some parts of us all that RSD can never touch, our hearts, our loves and our spirits. Pain may damage how we relate to them- but it can't take them away. I still love my animals - yet I hate them for their fur that burns right through me if I stroke them- but I will never stop loving them.

......and I guess, as I said earlier, I am just far too curious about the future to wish myself free of it, I just wish that I was RSD free in it!

Love

Frogga xxxxxxxxx