Originally Posted by waves

Adamo,

If you are feeling suicidal please call a crisis hotline, go to the ER, or call your psychiatrist. I will suggest again that you see a different psychiatrist. At least gauging by what you say, she sounds rather negative and threatening... that doesn't sound like a good thing to me, with you in this state.

That is the best perspective I can give you right now. I understand about feeling hopeless. Get some help. If one door won't open, try another. You don't have to be alone in this, and there will be better things ahead. Please remember that since you are scared you are probably seeing things as hopeless, but there is hope. The mind is a tricky bugger in that regard.

There is also a forum here at Neurotalk where you can talk about feelings of suicide. It is called "Survivors of Suicide". Although it isn't for crisis management, the folks are compassionate and there are fewer restrictions there for discussions about suicide or about feeling suicidal. Here is the link:

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html

I am afraid I don't have any useful take on your benzo situation, at this point.

waves