Thanks for starting this thread Bram!
And thanks for sharing everyone!! I feel so much better I'm not ready either.
It sounds weird but the burning pain motivated me to put up the tree finally last night. My wrist was burning so bad i put ketamine cream & a sock on it and pushed through. I guess it took my mind off the pain somewhat.
Anyway, there's a small tree with minimal decorations and I felt good I got that done.
I guess I imagined an adversary trying to keep me from doing a tree
I've gotten a few small gifts over the year, but i have no idea how or when
I'll be able to say I'm "done".