That's a common feeling murgir, but you weren't to know this was going to happen, and it's not your fault.

I had to give up my job early in this game, but I started working self-employed because not doing anything was really really bad for me in all sorts of ways. I got pretty depressed and just was kind of hopeless. Working again has given me back a purpose and a sense of self-respect, as long as some structure to my life. I'd never think badly of anyone going on benefits who needs to, but if you can work at all, even just small amounts part-time, then I'd say go for it, and keep going as long as you can. If you can't work then just find some other regular dates/times for activities or hobbies, join a club or something. It's important to have more than doc appts to look forward to lol!

Take care and have a better day,

Bram.