Sometimes when things really are bad....this is the best possible place to be. Even though I don't know you, I understand what poverty does. Add a few medical issues and non- responding doctors, and you have more issues than you want. Truly, I hope things can get better for you. Hope you can find a physician that will treat you decent. Don't give up. There will be folks here that may have some good ideas on how to help. PM me, and I can list some agencies that may give a hand. ginnie