Hi Bram! I am so sorry you are having so much spread and the difficulties that go along with it. Unfortunately, I understand and can relate to what you are experiencing. Know that you are not alone in this. I have been having the same struggles lately, which is why I haven't posted quite as much on here lately. I have had pain lately worse than I have in a very long time. This weather certainly doesn't help at all!
It is great news that your doctor may be getting you into that IVIg study...keep us posted on that! I hope she can get you in soon and that you will respond well to it.
I do not have any magic words to say to pep you up, just that we are all here for you to offer support and an ear to listen. I get it.
Oh, and never apologize for "dropping something like this on us"...it is what this place is for
Take care,
Nanc