Hi Kitt, Steph, Susanne, en bloc, Janeverts, Aussi 99 and all who have posted!

Such a relief to know that others understand what we are experiencing.

I use all the furniture, walls, doors, etc. in the house to keep me going. Even at night, I can do pretty well, as long as I KNOW there is nothing on the floor, to trip me up.

Today I kept getting a cramp on the inside of my thigh when I was sitting in a meeting. I finally just had to stand up and keep stretching it.

When you do have a diagnosis of what is causing your PN, do you then have some idea of whether or not it will progress? How far it will go? I was afraid that mine was related to autoimmune conditions and might spread all over my body (once brain tumors and spine damage and MS were ruled out).

But since it hasn't really 'spread' in 4 years, I guess whatever it was just happened and that was it. Most likely an antibiotic I took for an extended time.

I've actually taken the same antibiotic since the PN was diagnosed, but only briefly. All the antibiotics for Urinary Tract Infections can cause PN (up to and including death) but I'm deathly afraid of UTIs since I once had a kidney infection with e-coli that was in my blood before it was found and stopped.

I have very poor immunity (almost none) and so fear infections of all kinds.

I start on IVIG on Thursday. I tried the subcutaneous infusions of IgG, but my weekly reactions to the IgG were too much to bear. So now we're switching to monthly IVIG. Being really miserable once a month may be more bearable than every week.

I also have a copper deficiency, which 'can cause neurological problems' and is so rare as to be almost unaddressed in research or in the literature. Even my neurologist was hard pressed to know how to address it once he found it.

Again, I don't see why a copper deficiency would cause profound PN and then stop progressing since the deficiency still exists and was just found two weeks ago.

I'm tired of having weird stuff that no one understands.

If my PN isn't going to progress, I can probably manage. But I would certainly live in an assisted living environment if I didn't have my husband to take care of the house and help me with big things.

I have severe arthritis in my hands and can't manage heavy items, or picking up things very well. And of course, I can't walk anywhere carrying anything much.

I'm finding I accept this a bit better. But today, when I drove to the meeting, as I got out of the car and stood up, I realized AGAIN that I have to move very very slowly from sitting to standing, and then wait to see if I'm going to be dizzy (sometimes I am).

Once I started walking and then realized that I was going to faint. I fainted just inside the door of a restaurant, shocking myself, my friend next to me, and my husband who came rushing in behind us.

I don't have the dizziness when standing up all of the time, like so many do, however.

Susanne, you should try a scooter at one of the supermarkets or stores, just to see if you CAN drive one. Most people do notice the scooters, and steer clear, and they beep when you back them up, I think.

When I watch people with scooters shopping, most of the time they have someone with them, to reach for things, etc. I think the idea is just to be able to go out and see things and make some choices.

I am so used to shopping on line now, I'd be happy to do my grocery shopping that way, as long as I could get some 'good buys'!

I have hearing loss, and that adds to my instability, especially in the shower. If I close my eyes to rinse my hair, I no longer have my eyes, ears, or legs to give me a sense of position. I fell backwards out of the shower at the gym TWICE (before I knew I had PN) until I learned to stand with my back to the wall in the shower!

Janeverts, I'm so sorry to hear that you have vision problems! It doesn't seem fair that some of us get 'one of each' at the 'problem buffet' of life! Have you tried Cymbalta for the pain of your sensory neuropathy?

I take Cymbalta which helps a great deal. And Aleve (Naproxen Sodium). I cannot take any codeine type products as I have an immune response that is very unpleasant: frantic itching, pain, fatigue and depression.

My neurologist at Duke is Dr. Peterson (Paul), Immunologist is Dr. Lugar (Patricia) and Rheumatologist is Dr. Mitchell (Kate). My HUSBAND is a retired research Immunologist who did organ transplantation research and taught at a medical school in Boston for 25 years. He is as puzzled by my Primary Immune Deficiency Disorder, Neuropathy, and everything else, as I am.

But he does understand how complex our systems are, and how little doctors and medical science really know about how things work.

we are very very far from being able to cure or stop many of the conditions that make our lives miserable.

Well, life has no guarantees, for sure. And I've had many wonderful experiences. My heart breaks for the very young who have to spend their entire lives with serious disabilities. And yet I know that we can find joy and solace in the simplest things, that so much depends on letting go of expectations and accepting what is.

Today the sun is shining. And my house is reasonably clean and tidy! What more could I ask?

Hugs, elaine