so sorry your not doing well, it's all so frustrating.. and I know what you mean about being seronegative and worrying.. It'd be so nice to have a definitive answer so my mind didn't wonder as much about the other possibilities - that m ight be the worst!

I also understand not wanting to go be poked and prodded and retell the story etc etc.. it's not fun at all, and super frustrating if you don't feel like your listened to.. but that being said, it's important to be your own advocate and get the best treatment so you can feel better and do the things you love.. Good luck, keep us updated!