I know all about having to do what's right for me; it's gotten me through other family issues, like my sister's heroin addiction and my parents' determination to save her, even if it meant ruining their own lives... I just hate that I'm in yet another situation where I'm having to be so selfish, even if it's for different, although still very good, reasons.

I just talked to my husband and let him know where I was in the process of getting the house ready. He didn't seem upset or anything, but any time he goes to work on a day that I don't, he seems to have this mentality that I'm doing nothing while he's busting his butt, so while I may be making assumptions and putting more stress on myself by predicting his reactions and his thoughts, I'm doing so based on what I'm used to seeing from him, and I hate disappointing him.

The funny part is that most of the people coming over couldn't care less about the shape of my house, yet I still want everything to be perfect lol.

I guess I just needed the reminder that I'm still pretty new to all of this. Some days I feel like nothing happened, and then others I wake up and feel like I have gone back several steps.

The good news is that I will be able to sleep in tomorrow and relax most of the day since I got most of this done today.