i woke up this morning in nasty pain. i took methadone and gabapentin last night HOPING that i would be able to sleep. of course i didn't take my sleeping pill which obviously was a bad idea because i was up at 1 eating cake and reading the newspaper.

the point is, my arm hurts like hell. the tricep pain is ridiculous and i've even noticed it starting to spot (bruise) in a couple of places. i'm so upset because my ortho just shoved me off yesterday telling me i was going to be fine. I AM NOT FINE DAMNIT! i have been in ZERO pain (well at least i have told the therapist that). i can work thru pain. i have been getting my shots and the RSD has not flared up really bad as long as i have the shots. well that is until 2 days ago. I AM NOT FINE. and i DON'T appreciate being treated like i am a whiner. i have endured more pain in the past 2 months than most people do in a f*#@*ing LIFETIME. and when i say i am in pain when i was in no pain before i F*@#$ING MEAN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!