the little strength i have left
my adult children suck out of me
i REFUSE TO BE A DOORMAT
WIPING THEIR GRIMY
FEET IN MY HOME
GET THE PICTURE
my daughter who i give and give
my help as she oh no wait i have two more
adult children i just dote over
had to use my plastic card to get her 5 bras
as her husband isn't beneath any kind of work
high school sweethearts yet mom is buying her bras
that can fit her properly as her back and shoulders hurt
triple D
then i like a donkeys *** give her and him
600 bucks from a loan i took out
to pay for her storage

then i have my son who till yet to make
any payment sept 50 bucks oct 50 bucks
he owes me over 5000 bucks 3000 loan and
2000 for his leather couch on my card that i just paid off

and this selfish child that is mommy to my granddaughter
has no control as she picked up again and again and again
i have custody what will she do
how much more pain does there have to be
i vowed 2014 i'm not taking anymore turd from anyone
not even my children

i have a fifteen year old who needs me and i will
be here for Eva also
after a terrible argument she hounded her mother
to allow her to say goodnight to me
i mean really

it is my time to get my house in order
then tackle my apartment as it is far from being done

once again all that has happened this passed
four or five days is call all on their turd i am not responsible
for
and i need my monies back
i am going to a slew of doctors that will need co-pays
a car that won't last much longer
dressing my adult girls as they can't do for themselves
i have a heart that gets torn to pieces each and every time
struggle for food is the last of the worse
this is not suppose to happen

oh my Father you know i do not enable my children
i just trusted them to be truthful to me

it's a horrible feeling if you feel your children do not like you as a person
and that is exactly how i feel
no if an or butts

i am by far a stupid woman
just a mother looking out for her birds
they haven't got the hang of flying down yet

i will not have any disrespect in my home
as there are rules to abide to

what is it with this fast electronic world i
am not lost in it as they are but i am learning
not to take the bull turd any more
i have 10 doctors to see
i will be getting to them alone

my grandchild and Corissa need me
and i intend to be there for them

Jesus my brother carry me my knees are
week my body aches for a couple of days
with all i have done

nobody but my savior do i trust to guide
me
i await your instructions

thank you Father
brother
mother Mary

i believe
i trust
thy will be done