dear kerOpi,
i assume you mean MS. i don't know your situation but i want to tell you that MS is not a death sentence. no one, not even completely healthy people, can predict the future.

MS is very different for each individual. yes, some don't do well. but most do.
i was dx'd 11 yrs ago. my neuro thought i'd be in a wheelchair in 5 yrs. well, i'm not. i do walk with a cane and i'm slow. but i walk. i drive, i'm independent and live in my own house.

i'm saying you'll be able to do everything you used to. it just won't be the same. i had to learn to make adjustments. but making them helped me con't to live a fulfilling life. i have many friends.

i did have to give up my nursing job/career. i've got ssdi. life is adjusting.
i learned to be more gentle with myself, and i learned patience. boy, did i need that.

it's normal for you to grieve for the losses real and perceived in your life. it's so sad. please stay with us and we can listen to you and talk about it. offer support from folks who have been where you are now.

glad to meet you. glad you're here.