Hi Heidi, so sorry you are suffering. I do understand, been there. Bram is right, deep breathing exercises are easy to do and very useful. Getting your emotions in a better state will help you cope with the pain. Bram has also shared with us using meditation that you can find FREE on the internet. I use Pandora to listen free on the internet to new age music/spa music that I find very relaxing. Epsom salt (magnesium) can be bought at any drug store or ordered online http://www.sfbsc.com/epsom-salt?b=1 which is cheaper. Dissolve 2 cups in a warm water bath and soak for at least 15mins. I am also a big fan of aromatherapy using lavendar oil. Let us know how you are doing. ~Lottie