Hey there! So normally I would never share all this with the world of the internet but as everyone here understands... I'm curious to see if other people have dealt with this. I was diagnosed as bi polar but am almost always more depressed about six years ago. For years I was managed quite well with a mix of medications and lived a very normal productive life. I've had rsd for about 7 months now, with none of the treatments they keep swearing will work doing a damn bit of good. I feel my depression sliding out of control ( I just lost my job officially after being on workers comp med leave for six months ) . I've tried talking to my psych about the depression, and she tried to put me in the hospital. NO. I don't have health insurance any more and I'm hoping to pass the psych exam for a scs so going into the hospital wont help me. I don't feel suicidal, but how can you feel like there's anything to look forward to when this disease is eating you alive? I've tried talking to my mother ( her response was did she need to come over was I suicidal... ok that didn't help me besides make me angry that she couldn't understand I was just severely upset ). It seems like nobody gets it. How do you manage having a disease that leads to depression when you already were in a depressive state and taking the maximum amount of medication to control the depression? Has anybody else had to deal with these two things at once? How did you manage? I just feel like I don't know where to turn and I WANT to not feel like this so badly but I don't know how to help myself... which ****** me off to be honest lol. Even if it's weird, I'm open to anybody's advice about what they did to try to push off the major depression that comes with this.