Hang in there Grace. I know that fear you feel. I really did freak a time or two. Maybe cry and release some of that worry. I did plenty of that too. No one wants to go through these surgeries, and it is OK to feel scared. Just remember there can be very good outcomes. Make sure you tell you surgeon how scared you are, he may be able to offer a bit of comfort before your surgery date. Sometimes an extra word or two from the doctor relieves some of that stress. ginnie