I have only told a few people about this because occasionally I still cry when asked how I am doing and I am not a crier. It makes me mad at myself. I too am very independent and have had the same job for 32 years. It makes me so mad that I would love to work another 8 years but at the rate I am going I give it 6 months. I have seen so many trying to get disability that don't need it and it will take me probably 2 years to get it with this disease. Either the neurontin or this disease has caused worsing brain fog. I am really scared and don't like talking about it. I just act like I am normal to everyone because I really don't want every conversation to be about my health. Every second I can keep my mind off it the better I feel.