Murgir I'm so sorry things aren't working out for you at work. I'm not surprised you feel so bad, or that it's something that is hard to talk about. Stuff like that, it's damn difficult to even think about it, let alone get the words out there...

The brain fog is horrible, I hear you on that one. Scares me rigid some days. I am a tutor, and the reason I go almost med free is mainly because of the brain fog thing. I couldn't think on Neurontin at all myself, and a few others had the same effect. And if I can't think I can't work. Some days I feel like a mist has crept in anyway... I don't know. Sometimes I wonder how many more things can this disease affect or take away from us?

Day to day is all you can do murgir. Keep plodding on and don't give up hope. The future seems too scary to be looked at at times, so I try to keep my eyes on the here and now, and just vaguely hope for the future.

The disability claim time is ridiculous, and makes me so mad when people who really need it - like you (who should be applauded for trying to keep going as long as they have) have to wait so long. Try to remember that you deserve to get it, and have every right to it. Don't ever class yourself in there along with the ones we all know who give the system a bad name...

Hang in there murgir. Be proud of who you are and what you've achieved in the face of this disease. No matter what else changes in your life, it won't change that. You're doing an amazing thing here just getting up each day and fighting

Bram.