I am an 18 year old male. I was a very functional self sufficent, straight A student up til 2 and a half months ago. I was diagnosed with a concussion in football practice.

At first I didn't think much of it, I knew there was something wrong but couldn't put my finger on it. I slowley started to get worse having to quit my job and be home bound from school. I don't have headaches very often, they are the least of my worries. I feel like a totally new person (not in a good way). I began with the crippling anxiety that made me believe I was going insane and losing control. I thought I was terminal and didn't understand what was happening to me.

After expierencing the most horrific panic attacks I have been stuck in this depersonalized/derealization state of mind. A part of me goes through the motions of life while another part of me questions every thought or action I have to try and deem if it's "normal". I constantly have crippling worrying thoughts and feel as if my life is over.

I see my neurologist every month and he has assured me that all this is normal for recovery of concussions. This isn't my first concussion either, I have had multiple minor ones in the past.i also see my psychiatrist and psychologist every week. I was started on zoloft a month and a half ago at 50mg. I have recently been upped to 100 mg. I hate it! I was doing fine in my recovery on the 50mg even going back to school for half days. I have recently relapsed and feel like I'm back at square one. I feel weird from this medication and once my dosage increased have been expierencing muscle twitches, constantly clammy feet and hands, crippling anxiety and everything else you can probably think of.

I just feel so out of control and I don't know how to get it back. I just sit and have deep philosophical thoughts all day and constantly feel like I'm losing touch with reality and my old self as each day passes. I am trying to be a warrior and I do have a decent support system. I am scared and desperate to the point where I cannot leave my room. Is this all from the concussions in the past or am I insane?please help!