Abbie, what Kathy said is so true. Autopilot.

My therapist used that term with me many times when describing what I did after my daughter's father left us when I was extremely ill and then my sister died. I totally went on autopilot, only ... mine lasted for years. Literally, years. I just did what was necessary to take care of me and my daughter. No men. I withdrew, cruised...went on that autopilot. Just a few close friends and family came into MY inner circle.

That's one of the reasons I liked being on Paxil. Made me more on the numb side, and that's what I needed.

I think otherwise, we may just go totally zonkers.

Numb is good. So is sleep and rest and taking good care of yourself. ((Abbie))