I think there's probably a lot of us feeling that way Renee, so don't get so down on yourself about this.... Long term pain and physical limitations are bound to put stress on every relationship you have, especially your most important ones. And top of that is your marriage, because you go into it thinking of it as a partnership - then because of what the CRPS is doing to you, you feel like you've broken that contract and rewritten the rules...

You just have to remember, it's not our choice to deal with this. It's just what has happened, and if it had happened to your husband instead of you, you would be the one dealing with the changes in and for him. It's just the way the dice fall, for all of us.

If it helps at all, my husband and I actually saw a counsellor a while ago to talk through some of the ways our lives and relationship had changed, and the effects it was having on us. We'd been having a bit of a crappy time and it got us back on track - I'd recommend it every time. Our counsellor was lovely, and we just talked through everything and how it made us feel. It's amazing the difference it makes when you are talking to a complete outsider who knows nothing about your life but what you tell them. Very healing thing to do, and it makes it so much easier to see the other persons point of view...

There's no easy answers with any of this stuff, but you do need to kind of forgive yourself first of all. It's not your fault.

Take care and don't feel alone. We understand and we're with you on this one.

Bram.