Thanks guys. Today he is at least talking about it. Neither one of slept well last night. So this afternoon I asked him how he felt after mulling it over in his mind for a day. He said that he didn't even know whether he wanted to even see a neurologist. Then he said that he knew there was a certain amount of denial. For my husband to admit that was big. He usually doesn't admit to any emotion. This evening he did say that he wants to make sure we take a good vacation while we still can. I do't want him to think that this is a death sentence. I reminded him that some people have Parkinsons and it is bad and then there are others that are well controlled, just like there are people like Annette Funicello with MS and then there are people like me. Of course as I am saying this to him, I am trying to convince myself of it also. He is defenitely not one to ask me what my feelings are on things. I told him that he has never asked me how I feel about all this. His response was to continue to stare at the TV. He then eventually asked me how I was feeling. So I told him I was scared to death.

I know I should wait until we see the neurologist but I like to be in control of things. And right now I am not. And so I worry. Every problem that MAY happen in the future is running through my mind.