Father
Brother
Mother Mary

thank you for another day

lonely i am
my family
oh my family
yesterday was a big time phone day
managed to get much done
while in bed re-cooping
my throat is still very irritated
but anyway
i just got a phone call from my eldest
Lord as Only You know what is in my heart
i will Pray for my daughter
i will Pray for my sister
and the rest
Father
my sister in a good but very bad way
she is kicking dope
a drug that takes a physical hold on ones body
she is reaching out to me as i pray the tools i was
given in sobriety was more than i can be truly
be grateful for my obsession is lifted after 23 years
my sis is needing my help

my daughter i was able to tell her
the policy lapsed
pointing the finger still on me
all i had to say
it wasn't for me
and it was only good upon death
to the last policy i have
i will turn over to
Corissa
told her it was ultimately my fault
if i never did it
it wouldn't be a problem

my whole life it is me who has
always consoled whoever it be

Father help me help them
as i can only be available
for them when i am doing
well
step by step
sometimes inch by inch

i know it i lived it
in hindsight since being a little girl
we were so lucky
no truly the angels
had to have been there
to watch over us
some of the crazy crazy things
left to our own defenses

where did that time go
i didn't get a chance to play
i wanted to play
we did find time to
do stupid daring things
that make me cringe
oh yeah
the angels were with us

today another doctor
woman dr. yearly check-up
is i believe in preventive
health care
my mammo went well
as i wrote to all on a different
thread "women health"


got to view
as we all know the spinal vertebrae
should look like sandwiches stacked
on top of each other
l-4 nothing between the bread (disk)
same with l-5 most painful
and l-6 the same

i could not make out a darn thing
in the cervical region
things seem all disheveled
now i am all ready to be seen
by a new chief orthosurgeon
we will see what he has to say
i remember my surgeon
asking just like this
remember i came to him
chief complaint neck
after tests and film
"so which do you want to do first"
i remember looking at him puzzled
and finally said
"i am here for my neck"
you would think i would have
re thought who i was dealing with

enough about myself
my daily prayer
for all to experience a belly laugh
in there day where all around you are chiming
in the laugh

my sister hasn't called yet
the man she married moved out at her
request as she is madly in love with him
but understands he must go
in replacement she has her ex-husband
move back in with her my nephews father
for him i am hopeful for to have dad back
and yes she loves him also
however her true love is her now addict husband

i am aware of the craziness
i never held back about the truth
of my family and dynamics

i must and will always be there
wherever i am needed and i can Help
not Enable

i feel much better of the LEXEPRO
AND DECIDED NOT TO TAKE ANY
MEDS THAT I DO NOT WANT
I NEED TO FEEL
NOT ENTERTAIN THE DEVIL

hoping to have a stress free day
i have a ride to and from the doctors
thanks to an old friend
who i come to find
he always loved me
no not someone i would bring into my life now
but a friend none the less

thank you for allowing me to share