Hi everyone. I hope you're all doing okay. I hope you don't mind if I vent again but I feel like crap and am having a meltdown. I am also having a hot flash from my surgical menopause, as we speak. Lucky me. Well, I went to my gastro dr yesterday finally and she wants me to get bloodwork, an ultrasound on my stomach, an endoscopy and the "other" scopy (I know TMI). I am getting the first two things done next week. The endo and "other"scopy are going to be done in March. I'm so stressed out. I don't want any more tests and almost told her to forget about it, until I was hit with a stomach attack last night again. I was up half the night with severe nausea and stomach pain. I almost had my husband take me to the ER but it started to subside after I drank some milk and put a heating pad on my stomach. I have been laying off the advil because my dr said that it could be irritating my stomach. (I know that some of you have already warned me about all the meds I'm taking and I wish I listened to you when you did.) Instead I trusted my pm drs who I think have steered me wrong or I wouldn't be in this position now. I'm sorry I didn't listen to you guys when I had the chance. Hopefully my tests won't have any complications and they won't find anything serious. My dr seemed to think it might be the gallstones I have. She thinks I may even have an ulcer. I think she was surprised that the ER I went to last year didn't take my gallstones out when they first saw them. I wonder the same thing. But again I trusted the ER docs and sorta regret it now. I really liked this dr. And she told me some things I didn't know. Like that taking Advil and using Voltaren Gel at the same time can cause ulcers. I don't know why my other docs never told me this. Also, she told me that all the advil I took could cause ulcers to the stomach. I knew advil wasn't good but my docs told me it was okay. Also she felt that all the percs I take can be hard on the stomach. I knew this too, but again my pm doc said that I didn't take a high enough dosage to cause damage to my organs. I think I am going to really have to find a new pm dr. My gastro dr is going to check my thyroid, and stomach and the "other" area for anything suspicious. Anyway, I still have to go for an MRI on my hips because I can barely walk from the pain I have in them. Especially with this cold weather. I feel so overwhelmed. It's just one thing after another. I know alot of you have it worse than me, and that I shouldn't complain, but I'm not a strong person by nature and I'm scared. I feel like my body has been slowly falling apart ever since I've gotten rsd. I want to see my son graduate college. I've got a few more months to go before he does. I want to see him get married and have children of his own. I'm so afraid that this darn thing is going to make that impossible. I hope I'm wrong. If it's okay with you, I could sure use more pictures of beautiful scenes. Vrae and Tessa, you take beautiful pictures. And Bram, I'm breaking out my RSD flare kit because I'm starting to get a flare again from stress. Nanc, AZDi, SloRian, Tos, Kevscar, Heidi, Catra, Deb from Georgia and everyone else here (I'm sorry if I didn't list all of you but my memory is slipping again) I think you're all great. And you all make me smile and laugh. I kept thinking of the Muppetry last night when I was stressing out and it made me laugh. I need more MUPPETRY PLEASE !!! Thanks for listening and take good care of yourselves because you are all very special people. I'm so blessed have you as friends. Sincerely, Renee.