I'm so sorry you went through that Bram. Your pain dr shouldn't have said that to you and brought you to tears. I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself though. I wish I had. But I will tell my pm dr what the np said. I don't know if it will make a difference, but I'll feel better telling them how she made me feel and how wrong she was to say what she did. Just like your pain dr telling you that you're looking well. It doesn't mean you feel well. One of my brothers has stomach cancer and you couldn't tell that he has it by looking at him, but he's in constant pain from chemo and radiation treatments and surgeries. I don't say to him that since he looks okay he must feel okay. Of course not. Because I know how much pain he is in and what he's been through. So why do people think that because rsd people look okay that they feel okay? It's just wrong and I don't get it. It makes me so mad. And my gp is clueless too to rsd and hasn't bothered looking it up. (I have to give him a brochure too.) I get looks from him sometimes too of doubt, disbelief and boredom. I do like and trust him more then my other drs though. He still listens to me and tries to help me. And then every now and then I have some of my drs sqeeze my rsd hand and see how I move it (as if I am faking it and that they have to test me by doing this to make sure I'm not). And being that I'm so numb sometimes from pain pills, if I don't feel anything, it doesn't prove anything. It's so insulting! Oh well, as I've heard someone tell me once, "you can't fix stupid." And IMO some people are stupid when it comes to understanding rsd. (Not All Mind You, Just Some.)