OH BRAM! I am sorry you are hurting so badly. No one should hurt like this. Especially not our Bram, our wise sage, the one who always has the velvet words to make the rest of us feel better. It is 9:30pm on the east coast of America, I'm guessing about 3am in England (?). I can only hope that you are sleeping peacefully by now. I have been listening to Pandora via the Internet, they have lots of music to choose from, but I really like the "spa music" channel when I am hurting. It really helps to calm me. And I use lavendar aromatherapy. Have you been keeping up with your meditation during this rotten winter weather? And your epson warm baths? It has been horribly cold here too, with temps down to 3F at night and wind chills below zero farenheit. Wishing you better days Bram ~Lottie