Friday, yesterday, was a snow day.
We had freezing rains and some snow accumulation,
which is really rare for southern louisiana!
I made it to see one client and then had lunch and went to see another but decided to head home because the bridges were being closed due to ice and I was afraid to leave my car in the freezing rain because the heater in my car is not working correctly.
So I drove home the back way and was able to cross a bridge that had not been closed to get home.
So It is an awful day.
So at 3pm I decide that I was going to drink. Originally I was going to wait until 180 days, that is the challenge that I made with Belle,, so what was drinking 2 weeks earlier? Really?
Hubby discouraged me from drinking from the get go but I was bound and determined that I was going to drink....and drink I did.
In the cold, I drove 3 blocks to our grocery store and picked up a 6 pack of mikes hard lemonade, black cherry.
My favorite drink.
I was unstoppable.
Guzzled 3 drinks in 10 minutes flat.
I thought that I was going to stop at 6 but talked my sweet hubby into getting me some more and he did. So I ended up drinking 9....by then it was 1030pm and I was drunk.
Filled to the brim, I could barely drink any water with my night meds which are not supposed to be mixed with alcohol I might add. That was also 2,000 calories I might add!
Had a horrible time sleeping and got up at 5am to use the restroom(I was still drunk).
Took some advil and got on line and posted on my spark team. Hubby came out of the bedroom and asked me what I was doing? WE went back to bed.
I changed my alarm to 9am instead of 8.
And tried to sleep but to no avail.
So I got up at 9 and staggered out of bed to start my day.
I poured out the remaining black cherry elixir.....damn wolfie!
It was still 27 degrees but bright sunny sky's and the snow and the ice was melting already off the roof tops. I called my first client and told them I wanted it to warm up a bit before I came to see them so that gave me an extra hour to settle my stomach.
I had 2 cups of coffee and ate a cheese burger with out the bun. I knew that I needed to eat something and left overs sounded good.
I was hungover all day but worried about my stomach and whether I was going to get sick or not.
Saw all of my clients and provided an excellent service. ( Even though I felt not that great).
Came home around 5pm and felt normal again. We had a healthy meal of ham and lentil/tomato/kale soup that I had picked up at our local health food store.
It was delicious.
Hubby had a gig tonight playing jazz with the big band" the skyliners".
He left at 6;30 and I got on line and started entertaining myself.
I have been to forums, blogs, web sites, chat rooms....and now at midnight my day one is over.
That is right when wolfie wins you have to start counting days all over again.
My therapist says that I have an addictive nature and I agree with her and I let her know, she was very supportive as was Belle. Being on the computer for almost 6 hours straight is a problem.
I need to get a life, get back to the gym, develope some new hobbies, start reading more.
Oh and I am bipolar for those of you who don't know that about me so moderation has not been a strong hold for me yet. I made it thru the holidays and vacation for a total of 165 days alcohol free.
I can be proud of that.
bizi