I'm sorry to hear of your struggles. I faced the same kind if disappointment in the beginning when I thought I was making progress. I'm glad your ex inlaws can help, and I hope that you use all the support that is available to you. It could also be helpful to have someone else research any social programs that could help you in this state of emergency, since that sort of research really sets off symptoms. That way you could use all that you have for your children and your writing. Take care and I hope things are better for you soon.