Thank you all for your warm words and prayers. I am taking it one day at a time for the most part lol. I find the worst time is the middle of the night when you are exhausted and cant sleep. That is when your mind lets it all come crashing in. I pray alot and it ususally makes me cry lol, but it helps tremendously. I know better days are ahead, so I'll keep putting one foot in front of the other . At least our new little granddaughter makes me smile every single day!! My oldest son, who is the baby's father is going through some very major health troubles, so that is very hard on top of everything else. But God doesn't put us through things He PULLS us through things!! So I know I can trust Him to pull us all through this and into better times. God bless you all ,(((hugs))) cindy