Thanks for the replies.

Insurance is good. Our LTD policy is good. I guess that I am mentally prepared for a diagnosis but in terms of my employment I have the potential to immediately lose full employment with a diagnosis. That scares me.

I also still have my doubts and stemming mainly from a positive effects from taking a Tramadol.

I'm not sure the direction to go. I didn't like my neurologist. I live in Alaska so the choices are limited.

I just found out a colleague had a diagnosis and he remains employed. Apparently if it's mild enough I'm still ok.

Soccer - Taking MP would allow me to hide it but admittedly this doesn't seem like a good plan. I need some closure as to what the hell this is.

Thanks all, sometimes I just need to see my thoughts in print to see how good or bad they are...