Hi Lola,
Prayers and healing are on there way. I am sorry you are suffering. My first husband died of brain cancer when I was 28. I was a neuro/OR nurse which helped me through but it was so hard for him when he lost the ability to do things hat he use to be able to do. Family and friend support was very helpful but seeing your doctor and letting him know you are depressed is the first step in getting you on a healthy journey. Sometimes with anything that is on going our spirits go down and we need help through our doctors. Support groups are important on- line or in person and finding something that you enjoy, like writing, photography, supporting others may be things you may consider later on. Talk to someone about your sadness especially a healthcare professional you can trust. We all get depressed when we have chronic illnesses or injuries. I have been there before too. God bless you