i wonder if i could share today and say happy birthday to Alffe
as today is my birthday

i wonder if my mother will remember

i wonder how badly my father must have felt when he decided to kill himself

i wonder if he knows how much damage it has caused me and my sisters

i wonder if he knows i forgive him

i wonder if he remembers us

i wonder if i'll ever see him again

i wonder how much more time my child thinks she can continue her addiction

i wonder if ill ever be able to be grandmother to my grandchild
i have raised her

i wonder if my children feel my love

i wonder why