Thanks Barb and Nikko,

It felt strange to come back to this post as I had forgot it after getting the dear john letter. It hurts darn it to feel feelings. When I was with my husband I had to stop feeling to keep sane from all the emotional abuse. Today though I'm rather in good spirits. Although I did go up to Doug's door today to ask his step son who is in a wheel chair if he needed anything from the store. I told him not to telll anyone but if he needs anything to let me know. I did not ask about Doug but feel like his roommate may need someone now that Doug is in the hospital. When Doug gets back home I won't go over there anymore. His roommate didn't look like he was happy to see me today when I went over there. That hurt but then I got over it. If I ride by their house and I see Doug outside I'll wave but that's it.

befuddled2