Thanks Nanc, the limbic involvement feels like a fit. That physical surge and overreaction has a very primal and crude feeling about it. It's interesting AND awful to realize how my "higher thinking" was ready to follow along with supporting terrible thoughts even though I wouldn't normally think the things I've been thinking. Like there's an attempt by my limbic brain to overwrite my real thoughts and feelings.

Oy va voy. It looks like my higher brain is going to have to pull rank over and over to stay in charge. This is where being stubborn and hardheaded might finally pay off. <wink>

I'm having a good day today so it was a good time to talk about this, gather information and develop some strategy.