Vrae, you deserve a frickin' medal girl. Grit and determination should be your new middle names. I'm really proud of the way you just keep fighting this disease, despite all it is doing to try and stop you...
Hang in there. I know we say this a lot, but just keep doing it anyway. You still have such a lot to give, you maybe just need to take it down a notch and give yourself a little more breathing space - this could all be your body protesting that you're asking a little too much of it. Maybe, maybe not

Just something to consider.
I really hope this calms down a bit for you soon, it's so exhausting when everything takes so much out of you, and causes so much pain.
Take care of yourself x
Bram