You know it was really nice seeing these responses.I now look at the whole thing differently ...Truthfully I guess I pulled away too...like said so well.Its easier to stay in then be around others...I remember about 2 years ago,in a really bad spot in my life,went to breakfast with my husband and some friends..Alot of pain,and mind was not in a good place..I blew up at my husband for the most dumbest thing,they go,he loves you he did not mean it like that!!! it took me a long time to deal with that.I felt really stupid.I let my pain take over..But really I still feel like people will judge me..I try so hard to fit in..Pretend..I guess..What bothers me the most is my son does not even ask ..Maybe I am being pigheaded,but I feel like I am tired of reaching out to him,, eventhough I know that's probably wrong,but it is always one sided with him..I try to tell people what it is like with RSD and honestly they do not care..I told them look up RSD..read about it..I know they do not or they would ask questions..I do have to say,my HUSBAND has been the greatest...We have been dating for 10 years,lived together 5 on feb.14th,and he married me 12-22-2012 knowing my illness...He is the greatest..He is my whole life..
I just want to tell you all I guess we need to step back and start blaming our-selves some too..We all have changed.I think we feel lonely,but then again safer..not judged then..Thank you for being here..You All are the BEST