funny thing
my sister has a friend
her name is Linda
was diagnosed with
ductal carcinoma
my fear when i found out
was the upsetting
and it wasn't the removal
of both my breasts
i was worried that because
it found it's way into my blood
as i know we need healthy blood
feeding our body
"healthy oxygenated blood"
the fact is it is found upon
this MRI ordered by my pain
specialist who is sending me
to "his guy"
Chief of his group
Dr. Marc Arginteanu,M.D., F.A.C.S
of the METROPOLITAN NEUROSURGERY ASSOCIATES,P.A.

it is just by fluke that i get report jut before my oncologist
appointment
oh Dear God i pray the findings
are a fluke also
i have many questions i need to ask my
my dear friend from my surgeons office
became friends
called her this morning explained some things to her
she will call tonight on word or reaction
when he received package of hardware i used
to promote bone fusion
the device is called a "bone simulator"
i am trying to keep my turd together
until i see the doctor today at 1:30
i viewed the disc
i can see the hemagioma (spelling incorrect)
to tired to get paperwork
and i see the three vertebrates i bet are the ones
in question
they look like the have been chipped away
by "pac man" a little joke ha ha
i asked God for a miracle
it is a big one but nothing is big
all i was told to do is ask

when i tried to kill myself as a young teenager
i ran to my box room
bed and dresser with mirror
closet when made that clothes hung
opposite of how we do it know
point eva
took my Bible
said to God
show me
closed my eyes
pointer finger to point
opened book
it was
Psalms 6
verse 6
read all of Psalm
and knew there is a God
a long time ago
as i grew older and older
i became more in tune with the signs
that God the Father does show me
exactly what is meant for only me
as i speak in confidence only to him
and i have received confirmation
i am being listened to
so i will be on pins and needles
going to try my specialist in about an hour
he ordered the test

i thank everyone who understands my
eagerness over the weekend
needed my kids close to me
will bring update and then
return and explain what the oncologist
has to say
in Jesus i trust
amen