Thank you Hana! I so genuinely appreciate everyone that's replied and those who have just read my post. I was in so much pain for the 4 years prior to my surgery Jan 13th. and I'm not sure if I just expected some relief at the point I am now, and in fact it's a little worse as the surgery part is healing. I am realizing now that the Dr.'s have compassion but really have no idea how bad this pain can be in our lives. Just seems to be a constant struggle from the AM to PM every day! So as I read through the threads I now have a sense of calm, knowing there are others in the same situation, as bad as it sounds, helps from thinking your alone. So I see my surgeon on the 25th. And I'll see how it goes from there. Thanks guys, Kelly