I can feel the sadness in your post Alffe and I truly hope that I in no way contributed to that. That's comforting knowing that you love to say and hear Michael's name. I never even mentioned Mark to anyone but my inner self. It's not that I want him out of my life, goodness no. I'm just so confused and always wonder what if. I'd do anything to turn back the hands of time and sit down that night and just chat with him like we used to do. But we were all tired from the graduation and ate way too much at dinner and we went to bed early. The next day we were getting up early and heading down the NJ shore for the week. But then...

I do hope you're right Alffe and someone reads this and thinks twice about doing "it". So much pain, so much heart ache.